I Quit Smoking.

Hi Folks,

First of all, extremely sorry for the long hiatus. Wont say that I was busy in a hectic schedule and didn't have the time to write. I'ld be cheating My Self if I give any such plausible justification. I firmly believe that for things which you are passionate about--things which drive you crazy-- things after completion of which, give you a sense of satisfaction and achievement-- there is never a "Perfect Time" to get them done. They just come to you naturally, at ease. You make them happen completely oblivious of the outcome, never giving a damn care about the consequences or the aftermath. (touch-wood)

It  was for some strange-particular reason which no doubt, I am going to unfold in a short while. Its 3:20AM now. I got up pretty early than I usually do.Honestly speaking, I didn't sleep at all. Found my thoughts wondering to where I never expected them to go. Hence, pushed myself out of the bed in a nanosecond.

Switched on the lights, washed my face and was about to light a smoke. Suddenly, something happened. Something, that changed my mindset. Something that made me think. I confronted the mirror. Well, you might think it to be pretty normal. What's the big deal? This time, I examined myself thoroughly. Long, messy hair, sulky face with loads of prominent lines under my eyes, worn-out lips and full grown beard- to add it all, a ninety kg globe with a family-pack tummy. Somewhere I felt as if the boyish charm, the glaze was missing. 

I felt as if "Sutta" had robbed me of my innocence, my freshness, my spirit.As they say, "Everything comes with a price." Within the last five and half years of my precious life, I had lost my voice. I didn't sound melodious and could not even think of singing songs which involved high notes- leave aside singing in a public platform!! I could no longer do crunches and chin-ups as I used to do during the good,old adolescent days-- jogging or running is a far cry. Things have come to such a situation that I find it a Herculean task to take stairs to climb a three-story room of mine. Due to unhealthy sedentary lifestyle, binge eating and lack of exercise, I have succumbed to this despair.Now, this is the height. What next? And why the hell can't I quit it? Trust me, it is not going to be easy. But I had to do it- some day or the other.Hence, now, the right time has come. So, I am getting it done.

Finally, I take the pledge that I wont smoke- no matter whatever it takes- and this time I am damn serious about it. I had taken an oath about the fact that until I quit smoking and am confident that I wont start it all over again, I wont write anything- neither in my diary and nor in this website. So, here I am and am sure that this is where I am going to be for the times to come......